Why do we always have to pick titles for shit like this? You're just embarrassed of it 3 months later anyway. What's wrong with "my blog.com".Then 5 years later you don't have to explain to people why you have that stupid email, which you want to change but everyone has it now so fuck it. You know the one I'm talking about...Iheartpinkpowerranger@lsd.com. Yeah she was cute, anyway this blog has really gone downhill, gonna lay off the poetry for a little while, just write what's on my brain. So I was thinking in a most sarcastic manner, what else could I have named this heap of blog. Lets ponder shall we?

• Soft words by a winter's fire

• Words that mean stuff

• Romantic poetry that isn't romantic 

• I feed you words, you eat them

• I read you poem you run away

• Stealing hearts and gifting farts

• Don't read my diary, it's empty

• No one read my blog, I quit

• I draw I poet I sexy and I know it

• I angry I sad I write what is bad

I'm out.

Bad blogger is an understatement. I know.I'm using the platform for my own personal stress ball? you could say.

I live with agoraphobia. Google describes it as an "extreme or irrational fear of open or public places." Leaving the house basically and for the record Google doesn't have the coldest definition I've heard to date. 

My home is my safe place but not always. Who is ever truly safe all the time. Of course I have depression, what 34 year old anxiety riddled nutfuck doesn't have depression!? Not to mention trying enough different medications to fund a small pharmaceutical company. 

Oh, I went out yesterday though! I went grocery shopping and to the movies, all in one day! My legs felt like jelly the entire time and it was exhausting. PRETENDING TO BE NORMAL IS EXHAUSTING.

My biological father contacted me for the first time ever a few weeks ago and I think my neighbor is a rejected attempt at creating an anti-christ. She's just not very pleasing to the masses (She's ugly), so I guess Satan just had to keep on trying. Anyway, enough about me, how have you been?